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State your case and don't bore me--or there may be consequences.

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[throwmoreswords]

I will never stop bringing up that failure because it is simultaneously the funniest thing you've ever done while imitating another human being's attempt at reciprocity and something that almost hurt the last known feeling I have in my gulag of a chest.

[ Gilgamesh and his pride are going to die alone together, hand in unlovable hand. he's made peace with that.

he watches Vergil as he puts together his vegetable lumps, taking the plate graciously and moving to sit at the table with the meal, legs crossing as he can see the wheels turning behind those ice blue eyes as Vergil thinks and thinks again, turning the puzzle of the human experience over and over in his hands like he'll find some hidden mechanism or crack in the smooth facade if he just looks long and hard enough. ]

Well. Step one is to do things. New things, things that you've always discounted yourself from. 'Leap before you look' is a perfectly cromulent strategy in matters like this--I wouldn't say jump off a cliff or invest half of your money in the stock market on a feeling alone [ because those are Gilgamesh activities, not Vergil ones ] but something like...

[ he side-eyes Vergil for a moment. ]

Something like asking someone on a date. Or for accompaniment to a shared, interesting experience--the worst they can do is say no. Your heart may hurt for a time, but it will heal, and life will continue on. One mediocre experience shouldn't be enough for you to want to spend the rest of your life alone.

[ you need at least 18 years of being on the outside looking in on everyone else before you can join Gilgamesh in the die alone club, scrublord, and you have a kid somehow. ]

Why be ordinary, when you can be extraordinary? Why be alive if you're not going to live? Chase joy, Vergil Vittore. [ he's gonna pop a tomato slice into his mouth and talk with his mouth full because something needs to ruin the moment before his head explodes of well intentioned, heartfelt emotions. ]

See how a handsome, four-legged supernova can enrich you for the low cost of a little honesty and vulnerability. If he's still willing to flirt with you after you jumped out a window on him, you may as well start talking marriage, children, and who's keeping your vacation home in the Bahamas in the divorce.

[ too much heartfelt sincerity makes Gilgamesh feel barfy, so. ]

[kowase]

[ there's a visible CRINGE in vittore's throat as Gilgamesh brings up the FUCKING WINDOW incident again. Something he still regrets doing, not even being able to use the excuse of being tipsy due to his devil's constitution vs. alcohol. It had been one of the rudest things he's done in fine company and is... probably a good measure of how far he's come as a person that, if given the moment back, he'd have done something different as the person he is today.

He sighs, shaking off the feeling of returned embarrassment as he moves to join his friend at the table.
Using a fork and knife on his salad instead of picking it up with his fingers like a hELLION--his attention going from cutting the vegetables into food, to cutting it up to be eaten in sizeable pieces. ]

Being extraordinary is not my forte. I keep to myself, I chase no spotlight. It is Zulius who is good at that sort of thing, not me. [ which is probably why he's so... unsure about this. The Zebra man was such a shining force of positive energy. Why would he want to choose a partner who has difficulty matching his energy? Wouldn't that be disappointing?

...Or perhaps it's a balance they both. Could use. He's tinkering away with the thoughts in his head now as he examines a piece of mozzerella, like it's the most interesting thing in the world; beads of olive oil sticking to the slightly rough surface where it was sliced. ]

...I suppose I could do a date.
Truth be told.
I have already accompanied him on two. [ but they were like. FRIEND dates, not. Romantic dates. So like. god, he doesn't know. Maybe they weren't. He's second guessing himself eight different ways now. ]

I could. Invite him out for dinner. And we can discuss where to move forward from there.
That would be... harmless, yes?

[ maybe a bit boring, but. Vergil's never done this before. ]